As I struggle with my call to the ministry and in trying to define what it is that God would have me to do, in my prayers and in asking God to lead me. I feel that God is telling me not to try and be someone that I’m not, but that I should lead, teach and motivate others in the areas where God brought me out of to be where I am today.
As much as I try to be a general business person and not talk about where I am regarding the success or the lack of success in my life, I keep hearing the cry for black men to be role models. Then it seems the spirit keep telling me not only do we need role models, but that I’m needed to tell my story of what God has done for me and through me.
I am being drawn to a ministry that seems to be different from any other ministry I’ve seen. God has worked miracles in my life and in the life of my family. According to the world’s standard we were under educated, underprivileged and live totally in poverty until out of high school. In spite of that God has blessed me to have so much more than I through that I could ever have. Yet I know what I have that I did not get it on my own and I’m being led by the spirit to let people know how God has worked in my life. I have much fear in doing this because I do not want to be viewed as someone who feels as though they have done something on their own. I feel that God has done this for me because He wants me to tell others, show others, teach and lead others to become Christian entrepreneurs.
Most of the time I still feel unqualified to do what I feel God wants me to do, but God just keep blessing me to the point that the fear and love for God is greater than the joy that I could have from anything else that I would do.